December 3rd, 2017

I want to have a desire to improve.

I want to get better and become a better human being overall. I don’t want to be stuck in here and do nothing all day.

I am waiting for things to happen rather than enacting upon things and doing things myself. I am wasting my time. I know this. I know what to do in order to get better.

But for some reason, I decide not to. I decide to do nothing all day instead, because that’s what I want. I don’t want to spend time with people. I want to be by myself, because nobody else cares or understands. (People say they care, but all they seem to do is give me things and talk about themselves instead of actually listening to what I have to say.)

I need to see a therapist, I think. I have a lot of problems.