What did I do today?
I went to work. There was not much work. I did a few things for the managers but chilled mostly, finished an arrival notice and just took care of a few things.
I just want to contribute, but I’m currently just not that knowledgeable or even good at my job. That’s the truth – I’m just quite unproductive right now due to my tendency to make mistakes. I know that. I need to just suck it up, deal with it and just keep on trying my best.
I heard David GJN talk to Dennis on the phone. I overheard him talk about me, or at least I think. He said things to the tune of “well, he’s trying and he’s doing his best and he’s a smart kid so that’s what’s up.” That made me feel pretty damn good about myself and got my hopes and spirits up a little bit.
I didn’t do too much though, and towards the end of the day, I was doing nothing, mostly just sitting around and being on my phone. When it was 6 o’clock, I turned my computer off and asked if I could leave, they said “yes, you can leave,” so I did. There was no work, but I felt guilty. Maybe I should have stayed until the rest of them were up to something. I should have stayed as a part of the team. Teamwork. Togetherness. But I had no work so I just kinda left. IDK.
Regardless, it was a long day. When I came home I just hung out and talked with Danny from the PTCGO chat. We had a conversation about some decks that turned into him saying “solid eh” at the end, and I added saying “so we’re Canadian eh” and he said “I’m human eh” and I said “That’s what an alien would say.”
Lol this story is shit, but that’s why I’m starting to write now. Anyway, that ended up with him posting the screenshot in the chat and Danny saying I was really cool while Golfboy was like “aw I wish I could be friends with him.” Golfboy kept annoying me and I posted in the chat, “how do you block someone on discord?” and he spazzed out a little bit.
That wasn’t cool on my part. I was the one causing the drama there. He was just trying to be friendly. At the same time, he is annoying. But at the same same time, I’m no better by causing the drama on a 14 year old kid anyways.
I’m so lonely.
KEVIN KIM 