Today I moved out of the New Jersey spot I was living in and moved back home.
It wasn’t a hard decision at all. It saves money and it makes my life more comfortable. But that also means that I’ll likely be hanging out and doing nothing for a longer period of time. That’s fine, but — shit, I really need to find something to actually do.
A few reactions spurred from this decision. First off, I decided to let Patrick keep the deposit. It is not really a big deal for me. A few hundred dollars isn’t much considering I may be back at a later time (probably not, to be honest, but w/e). Patrick is going through some surgeries in his ulcer and stomach at this time and I felt it was more important for him to have the money than I do, considering I am at a financially stable place right now. I feel really good about it and hope it goes to good use for the man. Good karma, I figure. However, business decisions made in the future perhaps need to be more money-oriented, especially because I simply don’t have a reason to invest in Patrick at all. $900 isn’t going to completely alter his life. Maybe it will, maybe it won’t. It’ll be something I have to review as I go forward.
In addition, we went to Youngeun’s house for lunch. I had not met up with their family since I’d been in New Jersey. A lot of things happened, some obvious some not so obvious. Her dad, who’s that famous director guy in Korean sitcoms, suggested I become a music critic. It’s an interesting job and something I’ll have to research and consider. He was also a great storyteller. I also noticed a lot of family dynamics. Ahhh so much to think of and digest. I can go into all in detail if I want, but I really don’t. It has no meaning in my life. I find it interesting, but what’s the point? It doesn’t help me at all. David had to leave after a few minutes, but he was chill as always. He told us the story of Franzl Lang, a famous yodeler from the late 1900’s who worked as a coal miner but became a yodeler after discovering his talents. Pretty cool. The music made me pretty happy, no lie.
I wish there was a good, proper way to express my emotions.
KEVIN KIM 