Today is the first day of the rest of my life.
I have been a narcissist for the first 24 years of my life. Actually, that may not be true, but my behavior closely resembles it. Part of it is not my fault, but part of it is. I created social outcastism by constantly offending others.
Whether that is fair is not the point. I have to understand that shit goes both ways. The Golden Rule does stay intact, the way you treat other people ends up being the way they treat you. Be kind and respectful.
I have also been very passive-aggressive. I have liked to spread gossip.
This is bullshit. No reason to continue playing status games. The goal of status games is fame. I don’t want fame. I want money, health, and stability for my family.
I need to start working 70 hours a week. It is going to be hard. REALLY HARD. I am going to need to learn to manage my time and life. I am going to make that my reality, consisting of two jobs of synthesis and intent. Numerics too. Lol. I’m just saying the names of the things. Let me be more clear.
I need to get a sales job. Everything in life, in fact, is sales, and I guess I need to treat it as such. That’s the intent part. I have never really been good at that. I am not 100% devoted to that yet. I believe a synthesis job is something similar to the headhunter position. I have always understood how to connect people in different ways I think? I don’t know.
What are some good synthesis jobs? Maybe headhunting. Anything that connects one person to another. It is not easy. For me perhaps it is easier communicating ideas. Maybe that is what I should work on. Accurately assessing my skills is also necessary perhaps.
KEVIN KIM 