A truth that I’ve realized a long time ago but haven’t verbalized it.
I tend to want to vent online, in person, or whatever when I am sad. I am sad quite often and feel the need to vent a lot. However, since I haven’t done that much I tend to fill up entire blogs and twitter accounts with sad posts.
This does not mean I am sad all the time, but reading back on these blogs makes it seem like I’m the saddest person in the world.
I am sad, though. Especially right now. I just feel lonely. I feel like this is a constant; I called out from work again today, and I don’t know if I can really handle it… honestly, as long as I have money, who cares, right?
I do want to set up something that I can do for a long term scenario… blackjack and poker are good ways to do that. I do want to find other jobs cuz my job sucks ass right now.
I am also just sad.
KEVIN KIM 